[He knows when Lyall comes and he knows when Lyall sets the tea next to him. He can even smell that he's prepared it for him just the way he loves it the best. While he's still upset, he does truly appreciate the care that's gone into this.
Part of this is really just that he's mad at himself for being unable to provide any of this for Lyall. He can't be the one to fight him all out. He simply can't. No matter what, no matter how old his mate is, he'd have to hold back because he is stronger simply by being Alpha. It's just the nature of things.
And of course there's the matter of just how barbaric it is to actually want to go fight to clear the mind.
All the same he does sip the tea. He really appreciates that Lyall is letting him have this time to be upset. In all honesty he does actually need it. It would be far worse if he were to keep this bottled up.]
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Part of this is really just that he's mad at himself for being unable to provide any of this for Lyall. He can't be the one to fight him all out. He simply can't. No matter what, no matter how old his mate is, he'd have to hold back because he is stronger simply by being Alpha. It's just the nature of things.
And of course there's the matter of just how barbaric it is to actually want to go fight to clear the mind.
All the same he does sip the tea. He really appreciates that Lyall is letting him have this time to be upset. In all honesty he does actually need it. It would be far worse if he were to keep this bottled up.]